ef – a tale of memories – 07
Renji finds Chihiro hard at work in the library and reads what she’s written so far. When he comments on how the main character is cute, Chihiro decides to rewrite it all because she wants the character to be a bit off and out of touch. The following day, Renji is again with Chihiro, and he tells her that he’s thinking about the future aspirations handout. She doesn’t know what he’s talking about, so he explains it to her, but he then remembers that he had already told her about it once in the past. Something similar happens in a later discussion about the ending of the novel where Renji re-experiences a conversation they already had, only with their roles reversed. All this only serves to remind Renji that Chihiro only knows what she’s written in her diary. That’s why when she asks if he wants to kiss her on the way back home, citing how they’ve been meeting for so long and how she trusts him, he privately questions why she doesn’t seem to be happy or shy and why she didn’t say she loved him. He disagrees with what she said, but he realizes too late that she’ll take this the wrong way. When Chihiro apologizes and runs off in tears, Renji can’t chase her and just hopes that she doesn’t write what just happened in the diary.
As for Miyako, prior to her date with Hiro, she had been feeling that she had found where she belonged. As she left her empty house, she was reminded of when both her parents were around when she was little. However, her parents stopped loving each other, and on one occasion Miyako saw her mother breaking dishes by throwing them onto the floor. She remembers that after that, sound disappeared from her house, color disappeared from her world, and before she knew it, she disappeared from her parents’ hearts. However, meeting Hiro changed all that. For their date, she had waited for Hiro at their rendezvous spot, but their meeting time came and went, so she called and left a message on his cell phone warning him not to be late. When he still didn’t show up, she left him more messages – some expressing anger and others wondering if he was still coming. Between calls, she considered deleting her message logs and remembered what Kei had said about making her disappear from Hiro’s heart.
Worried about that, Miyako continues calling Hiro’s phone. Her messages progress from wondering if he got their meeting place wrong to being concerned if he’s okay; from being angry to being nice; from begging him to come to desperately questioning why he broke their promise; from wondering if he hates her to tearfully apologizing. One of her final messages asks him to save her because she doesn’t want to disappear from his heart. Unfortunately for Miyako, Hiro never hears any of those messages because Kei comes home with him. As he goes back out to the store, she notices his cell phone is blinking and realizes that it’s full of messages from Miyako. Two quick button presses later, they’re all deleted.
ED: 「I’m here」 by 田口宏子 (Taguchi Hiroko)
Ummm, wow. I haven’t always liked the style in which this show has been presented (some parts feel way too abstract), but the second half of this episode was like a masterpiece. The Renji and Chihiro stuff in the first half just can’t compare to how incredibly intense the message scene was. I lost count of how many of Miyako’s 99 messages they actually played (over twenty), but it was like watching a mind unravel and break down. At some point, I think she should have just given up trying to call and camped outside his apartment instead if she was really that worried. Regardless, I can only imagine how fragile and messed up she is right now, and to screw things up even more, Hiro won’t find out about those messages because of what Kei did. I’d hate to run into Miyako at this point, especially if I were Kei and Miyako found out what she was responsible for.
I know people really don’t like the School Days comparisons, but dear lord, I can’t stop thinking of Kotonoha in this case because of the creepiness factor. I don’t think it’s completely out of the question that they’ll take a page from School Days, especially since they even threw in the Nice Boat reference in the first episode, but since Hiro’s not stupid, I suspect he’ll find a way to fix things once he figures out what’s going on. Whatever ends up happening though, I’m now really excited about this series and can’t wait for next week.