「置き去りの幻」 (Okizari no Maboroshi)
I personally don’t fault Kukuru for her desperation when she used the miracle ploy to try and save Gama Gama. There was once a wise man, if you ignore the fact I’m saying this while looking in a mirror, who would tell his friends ‘You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take’ and ‘If you don’t try you don’t know’. Well, that’s exactly the point. If Kukuru doesn’t try how would she ever know if something wouldn’t work? Honestly, it’s things like courage and love which are driving her forwards relentlessly, even causing her to behave in undignified ways. It’s easy to laugh at her. Nevertheless, I can tell you, that stuff isn’t easy. Yes, it was cringeworthy. But I cannot fault Kukuru and she has definitely won my respect through her sheer grit and determination.
Readers will remember how I never give Kai any benefit of the doubt. I’ve been intermittently trashing him for being such a boring and unengaging character. Well, this week has kind of shifted that perception. I won’t say he knocked my socks off or hit a home run out of the park. However, we’re definitely shown where he’s coming from. Specifically that he’s always struggled with being more assertive and forthright with his feelings. And it doesn’t help that Kukuru is so single-minded to the point where she typically steamrolls him whenever he makes a timid attempt to speak up.
The Aquatic deluge shows him that if he wants Kukuru to rely on him, he shouldn’t wait for her to come to him. He should be the one to take the first step more often. And that’s exactly what he does, taking the initiative in asking Kukuru to relieve her negative emotions by boxing his hands. Kai still has a long way to go. For example, I understand that he didn’t want to give her false hope. But I don’t approve of the way he lied to Kukuru about not having an out of body, miracle experience. I say this as the boyfriend who’s been in that position where I honestly thought a white lie would be the utilitarian choice to spare feelings. What she doesn’t know wouldn’t hurt her. Only for the whole house to come crashing down later on. Relationships are built on openness and trust. Without those two things, where does that leave them? I suppose on the flipside, progress is being made and Kai’s dedicated and earnest.
To add to Kukuru’s pains, her singular support system that she’s grown to depend upon has stated that she plans to return to the idol life. Her older sister figure that she’d always yearned for in Fuuka will soon be gone from her life, just like that. If you ask me, it’s extremely sketchy when a new director on the scene requests a failed actress. If not for the fact this seems like one of PA Works wholesome slice of life shows, say if it was real life, I would have been extremely concerned and skeptical. I do feel for Kukuru and hope that she’s able to weather through this emotional crisis where everything just seems to be crumbling all around her. But I think if she truly cares for Fuuka, she should understand how down Fuuka was in terms of being unable to live up to her dream, and that this opportunity is an unmissable chance from the heavens.
If Fuuka turns down the opportunity and chooses to stay, I would definitely expect it from her meek and selfless character. But I would be disappointed too because Fuuka stepping up to the plate filled with determination would signify excellent growth from the situation she previously came from. In my opinion, making the same mistake twice would be the height of folly. My hope is that Fuuka follows up on that opportunity and makes it big time – though I wonder how the series would progress in terms of having two separate focuses when it’s already struggling so much with a singular one based around Gama Gama Aquarium.
Anyway, that’s about everything I wanted to discuss. As always, thanks for reading this post and see you all next week!