「本当の気持ちと向き合えますか?」 (Hontou no Kimochi to Mukiaemasu ka?)
“Can you Face your True Feelings?”
Something about the thought of having my soul extracted from my body just doesn’t sit well with me. Seeing how I’m a normal human being, I would feel a little violated if someone decided to rip my soul out my body. Isn’t your soul the basis of your very existence — the single thing that makes you who you are? You can bet that I felt Kyubei’s actions were absolutely unjustifiable. Somewhere between forgetting to mention certain facts to playing with Sayaka’s soul, I was ready to rip his head off. At the same time, I was surprised just how convincing the show was when it tried to justify Kyubei’s actions. Homura’s comment how an entire life normally isn’t enough for a miracle keeps echoing through my head. How often do you get a chance to have a wish granted? For such an opportunity, is it worth sacrificing everything?
For Kyouko, I’m so happy that she’s actually a warm hearted person. Her spunky attitude combined with her inability to be honest with her feelings makes her look pretty cute. I can’t blame her though — with the type of family she had to deal with, it’s amazing that she was able to keep pushing forward for so long. But what really got me was when she compared her suffering to the world’s ability to balance all the hope a miracle can grant by supplying an equal amount of despair. To me, it looks like Kyouko just needs a real friend.
As Sayaka’s own despair slowly descends upon her in the form of Hitomi’s burning passion for Kyosuke, it felt like a good reality check to watch Sayaka start to doubt herself. Watching her breakdown and show that she’s still a real person inside as the tears started flowing, I was expecting her to have a valiant battle against a witch and win after gaining the resolve to keep going. To top it off, I thought there was going to be a friendship building moment when I saw Kyouko watching Sayaka from afar, ready to spring into action when Sayaka needed it the most.
But no, instead of a happy ending we’re left with some sort of monster. Something about being able to separate your body and soul to the point where you can’t feel pain anymore just felt wrong. The very notion of separating the soul from the body isn’t right, but even with their souls outside of their body a Mahou Shoujo still looked like they retained their human traits. For Sayaka, if she can’t feel pain, who knows if she can still feel other things like laughter or happiness?